Progress

I made a roof rack for our car so we can get all of our stuff to Market... Myrtlewood and Iron Wood.

 I made some more progress on the chicken coop today.

 It's coming along.. It takes a while longer when you have to make, or scrounge the parts for it.

 Luckily we've been collecting windows for years and I always buy nails and such at garage sales... And made the beams from Maple on the property.

It now has 6 windows....Lot's of Light.

Really EERIE Dream

I was laying there asleep when everything began shaking.  An Earthquake, YIKES. I reached over Bracken and shook Taryn to wake her up.  Things kept shaking. Taryn finally woke up and I told her we were having an earthquake.  It just kept going on and on.  Finally it stopped and we went back to sleep, no major damage but I knew there would be somewhere.
The next morning I was out in the yard with Bracken when this plane started circling really low.  I got weird vibes and told Bracken to hide...which of course he didn't, he had some serious Playing to do.  The plane circled around and came down really low..... then landed outside.   
Things were laid out a little different in the dream, we were suddenly on flat land, it was pretty dry.  There was a Mobile home on each side of our place.  I didn't even notice what our place looked like.  I was looking at the neighbor with the big property (very small actually and a shabby trailer, but in the dream he was our rich neighbor).  The guy who got out of the plane was visibly freaked out, his wife was screaming from inside the house, pretty hysterically.  I knew the guy, I used to work with him many years ago, and still see him at Market, he's retired and runs a farm we trade with now for apples. 
He didn't look like he was in the mood for conversation, running around like a chicken with his head cut off.  Not being one to let that stop me, and curious if I could help with whatever had him freaked out, I said, " Wow, that was quite the earthquake last night."  "He said, "It was a 20.0". I said I didn't know it went that high and he said that it never had before that one.
I overheard his TV and realized something very major had happened.  All Hell had broken loose.
  Then I felt another shake and looked up at the sky. 
What I saw is a little hard to describe so bear with me.
When I meditate with my eyes open sometimes I can see the Light at the center of atoms, it's like everything has this white light glow made up of a gazillion stars....and it's like the sky is an ocean of a gazillion very very bright white tiny stars.  Well in the dream the sky was like this, but the stars were bigger than what I usually see, and were bright orange.  The whole sky was like a swirling mass of orange stars.  I went back to our house and saw Taryn and asked her if she saw that, but she didn't....and neither did Bracken who was probably 10 years old now. He didn't see it either.   
I was worried, I knew the shit had hit the fan and pretty soon folks would be running amuk, without access to food and utilities etc.  We weren't that well set up for food either but I figured I could manage, I'd do some hunting and gathering....and our location was on high ground surrounded with neighbors.
Well Bracken and I walked down the road and I was kind of thinking about things when we came to this small wood, like a thicket.  I saw a gun laying half covered with leaves and went and picked it up.  It was a shot gun, and had some shells.... and worked.  Well that was a score.
Then we walked back towards our place.
We had neighbors on each side, I'd spoken to the one on our left side and now came to the one on the right.  I had never met these folks, they'd just moved into this single wide green shabby looking mobile home with an awning.   They were standing under the awning and I told them they had a really nice place (makes me wonder what ours was like if I thought our neighbors shabby places were nice).  Anyway I said howdy and  looked up at the Orange swirling sky and asked if they saw that, and they didn't.   Then I went home to Taryn and had a realization that our only salvation was to meditate.  To become one on an energetic level, and at Peace with everything that was happening....and I wanted to tell this to everyone and asked if she'd get neighbor folks together.   
I was standing under the neighbors awning with them, I told them I wanted to tell them something I thought was important.  Taryn showed up with one other neighbor woman and I was preparing to talk.   I was preparing what I wanted to say, and knew it would sound like Greek to these folks. I was going to give them some background and speak about Kriya Yoga and Going Into the Light as a means of saving ourselves. So I began,
I said, "Back in 1970 I had what some folks would call an experience in Cosmic Consciousness, others might call it a Religious Experience or an Initiation...."   
That was as far as I got.
  Suddenly there was like this whoosh, and it was like there was an invisible energy that moved through the orange sky like a wave.  Like there was this intensification of energy, that almost had form, but not quite....it was like a wind of fire and it was moving quickly and trees were catching fire in the tops and the sky was lighting up (so that everyone could now see) ... And ash and fire was raining down everywhere.  In my head I heard the word ,"Demon" and knew that at one time this might have been described as one, or a Dragon.... but those were just fleeting thoughts, I never saw anything like that.  
Everyone had taken off from under the Mobile Homes canopy that had fire and huge chunks of ash raining down on it, and was running away.
I sat down on the porch there and closed my eyes and meditated.  I let myself become One with everything and felt it flowing through me.....  I was safe...
then woke up.


It took me a while to get back to sleep.

I've had dreams like this for a long long time.
The first time I had one I was very young and hadn't really devoloped too many opinions about things..... but the very noteable thing of that first dream, that really made me wonder was.....

There was this Intense energy blasting across the land .  And what I found ...... really strange was that it was the Churches that were the first things to burn.   They were like just blasting apart, where the fire just sort of rolled over everything else.

This is interesting because this was long before I'd gotten the opinion that Organized religion was probably the most destructive force this planet has known. And I remember years later wondering if this was a vision of the end of the world and God was the most pissed off at Organized Religion and how they has corrupted the Truth for their own ends.
Now of course I know there is no super entity that works in that fashion.  No vengeful angry super hero entity, but rather a One that is the All.
But you know there is this group of vermin that infests the planet.
It's motivated by Greed, and lust for power, and a lot of other nasty attributes.  A group that is part of the All One that is potentially capable, and proves this daily, of doing a lot of damage to this planet, and human and animal kind.  A Group of Dark Souls that has through their Fear, and Greed and Lust created things that could be a fire sweeping across the land destroying everything in it's path.  

HMM??? The thought just crossed my mind of how at one time this destructive force, like a fire across the land destroying everything sacred..... was the Crusades ..... and at another time it was the Inquisition....and another time it was the murder of indigenous populations through the idea of "Manifest Destiny".. And the slavery of colored humans under the idea that they were inferior and like unto animals.. All of these evil destructive things under the cloak of ,"The Church".

Nowadays it more under the cloak of Governments..... but i imagine it's still orchestrated by the same dark souls. 

And maybe that dream I had as a young child, of the fire rolling across the land at the hand of God, destroying the Churches...... was just built upon lifetimes of my anger against an institution that claimed to exist for good, but manifested primarily the opposite of that.         

Outcasts

What the Sheep,

who blindly follow don't realize.

Is that their shepherd is only protecting them from the wolf,

so that he himself can one day in His time,

Eat Them.

And the sad thing is,

in their hearts the sheep know this,

but choose the false temporary sense of security,

Over Freedom, Awareness, Truth and Life.

Many will choose a false sense of security over Truth,

Because the Pathway to Truth 

Is littered with Obstacles.

And it requires Strength

and a certain Fearlessness

to overcome these obstacles.

And the Shepherd has convinced the Sheep

that they are weak

and Fearful....

And they have come to believe it.

And so  they Give up their Growth

For "security".

There is one thing that goes without saying about 

"Being Secure".

When you are secure,

You can not Move.

If you can not move,

You can not Grow.

If you can not Grow,

you are as good as Dead.

The Preacher and President

are selling  a Prison. 

And Fear and Weakness

make it an easy sell.

And what is really really sad is that the name of this Prison 

is

Normalcy. 

And those who choose not to be Prisoners

are the Outcasts. 

 

FAITH, A most Mis-Understood Word

I think Faith is one of the most Mis-Understood words in the English Language. 
First let's talk about what Faith is not.
Faith is not believing something you have read, or been told, just because the source claims authority in the matter. 
 This is a blind acceptance that only leads to deeper Ignorance.
Some people will tell you that faith does not require proof..... and this claim is usually put forth by those sources who claim Authority, to insure a blind acceptance of whatever the particular Doctrine or Deity or Super Hero they are attempting to Sell you.
Muslims have "Faith" in the claimed words of their Prophet, and accept it all as true. (even the contradictions).
Christians have "Faith" in the claimed words of their Prophet, and accept it all as true. (even with all the contradictions).
Children have "Faith" that Santa will come on Christmas, and the Easter Bunny on Easter, yet us grown-ups know the "Truth" of that.
The problem is that this "Faith" of the blindly following religious zealot, and of the child..... is that it does not lead to Truth.

I have "Faith"
Real Faith
But it isn't blind.
Because it is based in Truth that I have experienced.
I have Faith that the Sun will come up in the morning, because it has for many lifetimes done just that.
And I have faith that my soul will get everything it needs to Grow, because for lifetimes that has been the case.
I have Faith that Love Heals and restores balance, because I have observed this to always be so.

True Faith comes from a long observance of immutable Laws,
not a blind acceptance of some claimed Authorities Doctrines, Deities or  Super Hero's.

The "Faith" of the "Faithful" only leads them deeper into subservience to things not real.

Real Faith leads to the Truth.  

"Faith" has been used by those claiming authority: (definition of authority:,"The power to enforce laws, exact obedience, command, determine, or judge."), to gain control, exact obedience,enforce laws and judge those who foolishly submit to the authorities concept of Faith.   
 This "Pseudo-Faith" has been easy to sell, as it brings a the sense of Peace that comes when one gives up their Free Will and submits to another's will.
  The freedom that abdicating for the Truth of one's Life Responsibility brings.  
A sheep gives it's Faith (and responsibility to care for itself) up to the Shepherd.... it's an easy life just grazing on the grass with no worries, because the shepherd will care for you...
It's an easy life when we don't need to seek Truth within ourselves and our Life because someone else has it all worked out for us, and we can just blindly accept (have faith) in what they are telling us.   
The Sheep will accept dogma full of contradictions and outright lies, for the pseudo peace that comes from not having to take responsibility for their own Lives.

So if you consider yourself Faithful.... 
What kind of Faith do you have.
Does it expand your soul,
or put it comfortable into a seemingly safe little box?   
Does it bring you a huge Love for your fellow man,
or does it give you Judgments of your fellow man.
Does it command obedience,
or show you Freedom ?
Does it make you a Follower of others,
or teach you that you are the Master of your own Destiny?

Those who relinquish their Free Will, to the "Faith" of self proclaimed Authorities, will not find the Truth, or their Purpose in Life.  
Many of the "Faithful" have become Sheep to False Authority because, rather than having real Faith, they have actually lost it, and rather than seeking to find Truth, because sometimes ..... no actually always, it has an aspect of Pain attached with it's discovery.   So the weak and unfaithful choose to become "the Faithful" so they can end the pain of Discovery, because the judgments that they place on what they discover, cause them pain.
Those with true faith learn that the judgments are what keep them from real Faith, and that the Judgments that they have placed upon aspects in the world around them, are really judgments on aspects of themselves.  And to be Truly Faithful one must cease judging, and begin perceiving what truly is.  
Faith is knowing Truth through a long history of perceiving what truly is.   

The Path is........

And some really cute Pictures of Bracken, Taken by Taryn...and me modeling my new hat Taryn knitted for me

It's difficult to put a Title up there First Thing at the Top, when you have no Idea what you are about to say.

Not Writing much these days, Busy with taking care of the Family and keeping up with keeping the Money flow coming in, so the bills can be paid,  and after the "Christmas Hit" (the car accident)..... I'm a few months behind in my work...... My Mantra has been,

"Just trying to get caught up on,

what I was trying to get caught up on,

when I was trying to get caught up."

But I have to write

my soul commands it..

And basically for the same reason

I dance, or play my guitar, or do artwork...

Because it puts me up against...

whatever it is that holds me back.

" Let your Freak Flag Fly"

Jimi said that,

And here's my take on that.

We are each unique souls

each of us has a unique contribution to make

to the Whole that we are part of.

But pretty much from the day we were born,

that uniqueness was drummed out of us.

By our schools, our parents, our friends.

They all wanted us to be a certain way...

And when we weren't always...

we'd be judged, 

and sometimes punished..

And most of the time we didn't even see

how we were being manipulated away from Ourselves.

So we held our toungue

kept parts of the world we knew

Hidden.

We all do it

Bracken taking a pea seed from my hand to plant in his first Garden

Probably one reason I rarely return to this blog is that....

I still Hide. And I don't want to see that,

or feel it's deep loneliness.

You know I think that most lonely people

are not really lonely for someone else,

but rather for themselves,

for who they really are.....

beyond who they have become for the world they were born into.

I censor my words because of Lifetimes of Harsh Judgment....

And the punishing, on whatever level....

stains our souls.....

And to be true to our uniqueness

We should share what we know,

and who we really are.

All the deep Judgments

and punishments from the Past,

that," stain upon our souls".... 

...Heavy stones in the Backpack

that have really no useful function,

once we have made our Unique Separate Expression 

through the world of Duality. 

"Let your Freak Flag Fly",

In other words, 

"Be true to your Soul."

You wanna know the purpose of Life...?

It's a 2 Part Purpose

Part One:  Make your Unique Separate Expression (Through the Collection of all things that will ultimately define you.)

Part 2:  Take out all those things you collected to define yourself...

Look at em real good.....

 With no Judgment Attached.

And then watch as they all dissolve into ONE THING

with Everything Else.

Do you want to know Truth?

Do you want to be One with God..?

Do you want to know the Path ? 

 

Well here's the thing,

you don't need to Follow anyone....

 to get there.

Because the truth is,

God is all around you...

At the center of every cell in your body

in that stone, and flower, bug and bird.....

In the dirt under my fingernails....

In the love from my heart...

Even at the heart of our thoughts....

In fact, there is Nothing in all Creation

that does not embody......God

God is the Indwelling Life.

AND the Manifested Form we call Creation.

Our DNA bought the Lie,

that God was some Great SuperHero who sat on the outside of Creation, Judging.... and doing all His Godley Things...

Watching over things,

and helping those who followed whatever Our particular "Faith" amounted to at the Time . 

And  you'd better follow His rules 

or get your butt kicked

by the Big Boot.

And whose existence made it possible for us , 

to stop looking for the meaning in our Life,

and in Life in general. 

Allowed us to go comfortably back to sleep,

knowing the world was as we had been told.

There was a lot of comfort in that,

but virtually no Growth.

Sorry...... that ain't it.

God is the whole dang thing..

The One that is the All.

And the coolest thing is that you can come face to face

with the ALL.

(Yikes, where'd my face go)

By going Deep enough

into anything in all Creation.

Here's the Truth that has been Hidden at horrible costs.

The Path is....

Everything.

Nothing Exists

That does not belong. 

And at the Heart of Everything 

Is the One

and Everything...

This is the Simple Truth...

But humans have denied themselves access to Everything

They have picked, and chosen...

this and that,

according to the Unique Separate expression it is there Destiny to make

or have made.

The Desired things are collected

the feared things are shunned, and hidden.

It is the Fear Based Judgments 

that deny us access to Everything

The places we shun, 

within ourselves,

and through the world around us,

are what keep us from God.

Once we've made our Unique Expression 

and you could say our path has changed

 Back towards the Center

which is also the Periphery  ....

The Judgments no longer serve us,

and are the Biggest Hindurance

to the Souls Evolution Home...(so to speak)  

 

 Below is a good pertinent post about how we withhold our breath,

from all those things we have 

listed and lined up on the 

Negative side of our dualistic perception...

And how this is at the heart of most Ill Health.

And how the Breath is a Pathway back to Balance. 

Breathe into It post  

A New Creation I burned into Red Alder Wood from out back..

OK, now here is a nice little "Esoteric Fact"

a little Magical Verse.....

That can mean nothing....

And everything

"We will find balance

and Oneness in It All

When we can Breathe into 

All of it.....

Equally.. "

YEP...

Well I guess that's all the time I have for now,

Taryn and Bracken will be up soon,

and I have long list of things to do..... and the fire to feed....

and a day to carry on .

A shop full of buttons waiting to be finished today,

the supplies I've got piled up where the new chicken coop will be need to be moved so a tree can fall there...... and a million other things to do...

I just heard Bracken waking up....

....Later