So Bracken and I were rolling on the lawn out back.
I was hugging him, the rolling over him while holding myself up
so it was like we're this one thing
I do this a lot with him
he loves it
so do I
Rollin on the Earth
nothin like it
But this particular time I had forgotten I had a camera
in the leg of my pants...
Anyway we're making the first couple of rolls and the camera falls out..
And I don't want Bracken to roll on the Camera.
so I do some kind of contortion to miss it.
And then I hear a loud....
not exactly a "POP".....or CLUNK
well maybe the combination of those two
Anyway there is this lod sound
Something in my chest.... HURT
It was like Hurtin Now...
It wasn't a case of, "Dang, that's gonna hurt later"
Which is usually the case with things because I don't have time for them "Now".
So I guess I just kinda hold it back till I have time to deal with it...
and that'd be whilst I'm a sleepin.
But it in this particular case...
It hurt now!
Anyway been to the Chiro twice
pushed it back... Kinda
So here's the deal.
The reason I have a dislocated rib right now,
Isn't because I did some wrong move,
and it was an accident...
You see I have had this ..... way of protecting my Heart
It's like a wall...
Like a castle that I can venture out of
But nobody can venture in to.
And over the course of my life it seems there have been these cycles
I let my heart run beyond the walls...
for a short time
then I run back and hide in the castle.....
Then I let my heart run beyond the walls
then back to my safe castle.
But did I ever let anybody in the Castle..
I think I did,
but I think a whole bunch of time I did
I got terribly hurt.
So I quit opening the door.
But the Truth is..
I love so much
and it's just really so very Big.
It's so much bigger than everything else.
Bigger than the Castle..But I have an almost impossible time handling love
when it's pointed at me..
This Castle sat in my Chest...
it weighed heavy
and it threw off my Balance.
and I hurt myself...
I am going to tear down that Castle
and let my heart run free
from Now on.