Being "Misunderstood"

Being Misunderstood:

I was inspired to write this in Response to something a friend said about people making assumptions about them and judging them based upon those assumptions, which were erroneous.. 

Being Misunderstood

That used to be my biggest pet peeves

then I finally realized how we each inhabit an entirely unique and different position in 

the Web of it All....

which is basically determined by when in the Evolution of 

IT ALL

your soul was born..

No two souls ever in exactly the same place.

Therefore we each have a totally unique perspective 

that is all our own.

And this is all part of the Plan.

So the fact of the matter is

Not one person in existence now 

or ever, 

will totally be able to understand us 

(operating from a different vantage point in the web)...

So my expectations to "be understood" were really a dance of futility.

Some in the Web are closer to us,

and can come closer to understanding our perspective...

somewhat.... 

But there are those who it will simply be impossible for.

After all, nobody really sees "you"...

They see reflections 

of their own thoughts,

and feelings

...superimposed on you.

Have a Wonderful Day

Back to the Garden A Souls Journey...Judge No More

It just occurred to me what it is that causes the human soul to be separated from the All.

What instigated the Switch from the One....
to a Dualist Reality ?

It was a Judgment.....

An idea of separation..

And upon a souls first judgment
a world of darkness and Light is formed...
a duality.

And this souls world expands outward
upon more judgments
"that is bad, I shun that"
"that is good,
I desire it."
Chasing a Dream in Duality...
Running from the Garden....
Running to a Dream

But a point in the souls evolution arrives one day
when it is as far as it can possibly get from "the Garden".
And at that point,
the direction changes...
The soul turns and looks back..
And then:
The soul learns to withhold Judgment....

And follows the Crumbs
of it's past judgments,
looking lovingly at them
(without guilt or shame)
and following this trail of crumbs
Back to the Garden.

If you are lookin for your way back to the Garden
Follow the crumbs of your Judgments
and Judge no More..

So today I needed to move the Ducks from the Bathtub..... to their new outside home. 

Make a Note :
Duck Poop smells WAY worse than chicken poop.
You don't really want ducks in your House.....

Problem was the outside Duck home had a foot of primo future chicken poo compost that I needed to move first. 
Then I made it Critter proof,
hopefully.

I'm a little distracted, I think there may be a cougar snootin around the place, thinking of Baby goats....

Anyway I was workin outside in the rain,
feeling that nice bright Radioactive vibration engulfing me....


so I decided to go with it,
I keep getting the message that Radiation is a lot like the Light....
It's a highly vibratory energy.
Well anyway I was walkin along back and forth between the coop and the compost heap up the hill, carrying compost in a big Tree Pot, with handels.   Our chicken yard gate is too narrow for the wheelbarrow, so I was walkin back and forth for quite a while carrying chicken poop and straw.  Made a nice big beautiful compost heap, I'll turn it in 2 weeks....then again in another 2 and It'll probably be ready....that's the beauty of chicken poop compost, you work it right and it goes fast.  I mixed in some Rock Phosphate and some Azomite and a little bag of microbials I discovered.  So there's a nice pile cookin....

Anyway I was walkin and basking in this Light....
and I caught myself Shining....
I Quickly pulled back from Shining,
then my Aries spoke up....
"I can have as much Light as I want".....
And I stood up straighter and shined some....
Then I whispered,
"I can be in the Light all I want..."
and I stood up a little straighter......
Then I kinda crouched down like I was duckin a bullet.....
Why had I just whispered my declaration...?
Because I was afraid....
Visions of being Tarred and Feathered.....
and strapped to a thing that dunks you under the water,
eventually drowning you....
And then I quickly  thought about something else for a sec..
Then my Aries came out and said....
"I can have as much Light as I want...."
And I stood up straighter,
moved more smoothly and swiftly.....
and felt Joyful..

It is so freaky how we'll deny our Light....
our Joy

Because so many folks just don't Get it...

And it scares em...

So we hide our Little Light under a Bushel Basket.

"This Little Light of Mine
I'm gonna let it Shine...."

Once Humans learn to "Feed the Light,"
Feed the Joy...

and do this in Mass

The world will be like a Butterfly

emerging from a cacoon...

The view will be so much Brighter
And the worm will be able to Fly.

I just sat down to look into my computer
At past Creations
To get some Inspiration…
And all these folders were there,
 of all these different weeks.
And the amount of work I saw in those pictures..
Was incredible
 and I had been sitting there feeling inadequate
Because today was a town day,
and I hadn’t gotten any, ”work” done

What I do every day,
Is monumental.
I get up and cut and haul the days wood into the house
 and get the fire going.
I get Breakfast made
Generally Lunch and Dinner as well
All homemade from scratch,
Nutrient Dense meals
Got a Feeding Mama
with a Feeding Baby to feed

When we were still eating Grains. Man I miss Rice and Corn

This is one area you should not scrimp on Energetically.
The children are the Future

Feed them as well as you can
Don't throw them into a System designed to Dummy them Down.

I feed the dogs
And the goats
And the Cats

I take care of the Greenhouse and always have multiple outdoor projects going.

Gettin it built, you should see it now..Totally Full

Gettin Firewood...Love That

I spend as much time with Taryn, and Bracken as I can…

Who are just as busy as I am…



I create incredible amounts of artwork

Especially considering the time I have to do that…
I have to stay up Late to get that "work" done..

I fix what need fixin

Septic Tank Caved in..Dug it up, made a new lid with Cedar

Trips to town,
Saturday Market,

folks visiting….

All days when I’m not creating product.
Not making any money..

I feel like our job here on the Planet is to Work
To build the Dream
To Live the Dream
Within the “Work”.


It’s all about Balance

But the “System” attempts to force us to live by it’s rules
So that we can serve the Few
That are controlling that “System”
that’s trying to control us…
We are forced into Joining
If we want electricity,
Or to stay on our own Property.
We have to have money.
The Law say’s you gotta insure your car,
So if you want to drive,
You gotta pay money..
You gotta pay into this System…
that is built to Drain that expression of Life Force (money)
Away from us , the Masses…
And into a Few
Do you see how we are controlled by Vampires….
Hey, today's April 15th
Means you gotta pay that Mighty Government
a good portion of the little bit of money you earned
so that they can use it to go and kill folks in Foreign lands so that they can steal, and get control of their resources.
We’re like the Herd,
We’re kept over here,
 dummied down on Food that isn’t food
Schools that don’t Teach Truth,
But rather train us to be
 Food for the Vampires.

And we’re so dummied down from those Vaccinations we had,
The Heavy metals and Formaldehyde totally fritzing the entire electrical system
Of our bodies…. And minds
Dummied down with Fluoride in the water of the Masses.
Part of the plan since Hitlers day,
A major advocate of Fluoride in the drinking water
For Controlling the Masses.

American’s… you totally crack me up…
Talk about the land of Denial.

“The Land of the Free…and the Home of the Brave..”

I hate to tell you this but,
You are the least Free of them All….
You got it so bad that you don’t even know you are in Prison.
A Cash cow…
Feeder Sheep....
Feed for the Vampires

Get a clue……
Quit eatin that shit,
Quit drinking Stupidity
Quit lettin em put Stupidity in your Teeth,
 in your water,
 in your air…..
IN YOUR FOOD…
In your Sacred Body.
Quit believing it when they say,
"It's good for you".
If they say that...
do the opposite..

Wake the Hell up
I know, I know
They have sucked so much blood from you
You don’t have any strength left.
You don't even know who you are anymore...

Don’t be Manipulated
Educate yourself beyond Fox news,
Or any Mainstream Media….
Break out of the Illusion
the Vampires hold you inside..
Tempting you , with your numbed out soul,
that you’ll be happy,
 with a Big Screen Hi Def TV…
That’s all you need….
 Livin Large.

Wake the Hell up

You are hypnotized

Don’t take it

Don’t accept the Vampires Lie….
Don't buy into the Fear they sell you.

“Oh But we must,
If we don’t
If we do what is Good, honest and right in our lives
and for others
They could send us to prison…
For not following their rules…”



OK Folks
Let’s break out…
I mean the odds are on our side…
It’s gotta be like 10 million of us poor feeder cows/sheep,
To just one Vampire..
If we get our heads out of the clouds and the gutters
Where they’ve assigned us to be
With their Drugs….or Poverty….
Which they give us,
and these days if we refuse…
They might send us to Prison…
They are getting hard up folks.
Really clampin down.
They can’t have folks taking their Health into their own hands……
They can’t have folks refusing the Drugs they use to stupify us…
Have another candy bar and some nice Latte…
Flying on sugar…so far off the Earth you can’t see that
You are no longer in Control of yourself…
Have another Beer,
a nice cocktail…
Here, smoke this cigarrette, you’ll feel better.

“But whatever you do….
do not smoke the Herb. 
We will throw your ass in Jail for that…"
Why?
"Because if it’s not what we are supplying,
Which is bred to Dummy you down,
Then there is a high percentage of a chance,
That it might wake your ass up
And you’ll see that you are just a Feed Cow
For a few Vampires
And if the Hypnotic spell is broken
Well, that would be the end of the World
For the Vampires."

 They don’t Like the Light…

Here, have a Valium….

There are enough of us here to take care of each other..
Without having to pay our dues
To some sick freaking Vampires
That are just going to use our Blood
To fuel their Assaults
On other Countries where there is more blood to be had….
Do you hear me.
Wake UP !!!!
Unplug the TV
Throw away the radio..
Take time and just sit…
With your heart for a while

It’ll tell you what is Real…
Start listening to that…
Not your head being driven by an external force….
Controlled by the Vampires.

Just sit with yourself.
Be Quiet..
We are All Here
Feel it
We are All One Thing
Feel it..

If each of us
Were to follow our hearts…
And actually be Honest,
Every step of the way…
And not living in the Denial
Which is the Law of the Land these days…
This world will ……Shine….

Your shine
is my Shine
And My shine
Is your Shine
So shine On…

Money:
Requirement in the Game

The Game that they say we must play,
Or possibly go to jail,
Or become homeless…

The lack of it
Puts stress on us…
It doesn’t feel good….
So we join the dang Game…
And Feed the Vampire.

If we all start waking up
Say, "No Freakin Way to your GMO …
No Freakin way to your Processed “Foods”.
Say no Freaking way to your Television Lies
No freakin way your gonna dummy us down ..
We no longer accept you
As the Law in this Town"

OH yeah, Right
You got the big guns


But there’s a million of us
To one of you
As soon as we all get woken up..

What Really Matters

OK, so, I told all my Hidden stories in "Coming out of the Scary Weirdness Closet", all my hidden secret stuff that I didn't tell folks because , well it's nice not to have folks think you are crazy, it's nice to be sort of accepted by family members....
Well here's the thing..
I kept the important stuff Hidden.
  I still haven't told you the Central Story....what really matters.
Why, because whenever I have spoken of this....well, I have yet to find anybody who knows what the heck I'm talking about...and to me, it seems like the most significant thing...The most important thing a person could know, or strive for... But I kept this little chapter hidden....even from Myself.  I was just talkin to (better not post her name w/o permission) today about how when the German and my Teachers were talkin to me, it was the most lucid experiences that affected me deeply, yet I, on my day to day level, ignored em....sittin right there talkin to me.  I'm paying close attention and at the same time Ignoring it like it isn't there, isn't happening.   Trying to explain this in our limited language was difficult so I said it was as though I was being taught in Nagual's time...yet was.... forced to exist in Tonal's time. (for those of you who know Don Juan's Lingo.)

So I've kept most of my Truth hidden most of my Life....just came out of the Closet with the, "Coming out of the Scary Weirdness closet"... and realized sitting here tonight how I had avoided mentioning the most important thing.
I don't know if I talked about this in earlier posts, so I'll repeat it here .  Back in 1970 I had an experience sitting on the side of a mountain.  In some Circles it would be called an Initiation, in others it would be called, experiencing Cosmic Consciousness.   Anyway that experience changed EVERYTHING for me.  The night of the experience a Teacher started coming to me in my Dreams every night. It was in a place I called, "The White Hall". And what this teacher was teaching me was various methods of,"Going Into the Light".
Let me attempt to explain what that means....
We are energy bodies that exist in a vast energy Grid.
Every cell in our bodies.... and every particle in this Creation, has a Power, a Light at it's heart that is Brighter than our Physical Sun..... every cell, every particle of orgone has an energy beyond comprehension. This Light that we all share....in fact you could say, this Light that we all collectively are..(that some some call God)... is assessable to us.

It is entirely possible to Rest in a Blissful Energetic pure state of the All.  It is our most natural state.  It is what all Spiritual folks are striving for, whether they know it or not.
So why don't we hear about this...why aren't we taught in schools how to access this Cosmic Consciousness?
Good question eh.?
Well, I've kept it hidden for 30 some years....
I'll tell you one reason.
When you experience something, so ....POWERFUL, so Blissful, so full of Unity and Love as to be beyond any description.... and nobody else does....  And when you try to convey the Beauty of it to them they look at you like you are from another Planet... It is lonely as freakin Hell.
I'm talkin it out now,
to this blog...
yet how many that I am talkin to,
have been there?

A door I carved

Well anyway the Teacher showed me a different method, sometimes more than one, every night. All these Paths to a Pure State. Because everybody doesn't have the same path...but the Destination is the same for everyone.
They had a "Rule of Three",
which said I could only follow each Path 3 times..
and that has to do with how humans use Habits
to Imprison themselves. 

What we are,
before everything that we have added.....
and after everything we have added....
Is the Light.

This is the Destination...

And this is not Light...as opposed to Darkness...

This is Light that contains Everything.

That is at the Heart of Everything...

This is such a basic Spiritual Truth, yet it sure doesn't get much press.

You hear folks say, "Jesus is the Light of the World"....
and so they worship some highly realized soul who died a long time ago...
and miss the Point,
Jesus was not the Light of the World,
But he Realized it
he knew that was the Goal...
Well that little fact sort of got lost in the shuffle of this huge monster that was called, "The Church"
They had their own agenda which had ZERO to do with helping folks
Know the Light
Know the Truth.
I mean if you have the Experience,
you can go back and read between the lines in the Bible,
and find the truth behind a lot of it..

The Church .....has hidden a Truth
yet they are still a Path for a small % of the human population....
Sadly they seem to think they are what everyone needs...
Not so

There are 7 major paths,
and within these seven there are countless.
This is an area the Teacher,
and later multiple Teachers
focussed my ....learning upon.
And I was supposed to pass it along.
Well, I guess now I am,
better late than never.

The Light is at the Heart of us
the Light is at the heart of all things
we are the Light
we all are the Light
When we can experience the Light
as a real Experience
every cell within us
Sings
We are purified
we realize our Immortality
We are the One

Everyone should experience it
there is nothing in the world that rivals it....not even close.
It is the utmost experience a human can have.

Why don't they teach this in Church?

I was taught all these different ways,
so that I could teach these to others...
because like I say, each of us will have a "Path of Least Resistance"
the most natural way to go...
But then I see how humans get so totally obsessed with their Paths
and don't really see that their Destination is right there...
If only they'd look up from their Paths.
So I've been coming to believe that now it is time to focus not on the Path
but on the Destination.

The Destination is the Light

so that is what we should focus upon....

Well after my Experience this was easy,

I'd close my eyes....

and it was brighter than when they were open

it was right there and all I had to do was

Let Go into it.

I think Kriya Yoga used to be all about this process..

Not sure, these days the Money in "Spirituality" 

in NEWAGE stuff as I call it,

has really warped a lot of the old basic Truths.....

But here is a couple generic tips..

Sit in a totally dark closet...NO Light from outside at all...none
then put your tongue on the roof of your mouth and look up into your forehead with your eyes...turn them up towards your third eye.  The Light is right there in front of you
all through you, all around you....
you just don't believe it because,
you are sitting in total darkness...
Now you might notice a Sound
The sound is also the Light. So if you hear that..
and really it is more like your every cell , hears it...
Follow it.
When you start to see the Light shifting before you like sand blowing in the desert..
It can be soo sooo subtle at first.
Go into it.... Let it engulf you...
Just keep letting go into it.
Don't worry, you won't die.
I think part of the reason humans don't go here much is the fear of death.
You see there is a stage of the death process,
where we go to the Light
....and it's memoryisa cellular....
more like a DNA memory,
that often has fear attached.
Dying can have it's scary parts......
and goin into the Light is a lot like dying
but don't worry,
you'll be OK.
Don't get sidetracked... Keep your focus in the Light.
The place between you....
and It (the Light) now
is the astral plane.
Those shifting sands of Light,
 that's the astral plane you are viewing it in....
so don't get sidetracked...
OH Yeah, shut up you head.....
you can't take your thoughts....or emotions
to the Light
You gotta let em go to get there.
I guess I should have mentioned that before, pretty major point.
Then just Let Go into the Light.....
You will know when it happens because you will cease to exist as a separate entity for a bit. And you will feel the Power and Bliss of all Creation.

That is one method of direct focus on the Light/Sound.

Another, one that will work for other folks is sit in a closet again....empty save for all white walls.... with the Light on... Quiet your mind and emotions.... stop trying to define your experience,
and just let go into the Light behind the White...
Just keep letting go....keep filling up with the Light...
Until you are gone
and there is nothing left but the Light....
You will know when you've done it... Like I say, nothing else compares.

I just read over the first part of this and Realized how, "The Light".
Is just words to most folks...just a concept they haven't grasped, just some other thing.....
I can't really talk about it and make a person understand....
It's frustrating.
OK, I'm gonna boil it right down for ya....


It is totally possible to
Know God
When we are in the Light
we are One
with God...

That is pretty major...


So again I ask,
Why are we not taught how to go into the Light
from day 1..?

My whole life I've carried the knowledge that I was supposed to facilitate the understanding of the Seven Rays.
I've shirked that well and still am attempting to do so......
I just keep thinking that the rules have changed since the Quickening.....
and we can forget the Paths
and focus on the destination...

But who knows, maybe I'll go into it in future posts.
In the mean time if you are interested my old Teacher put some really good info out about it through Alice Bailey....
If you can jive with the style of writing ...
which actually has a certain tempo,
then you can learn a lot about the seven rays from that.....
The reason I was supposed to bring it out was that it needs to be in today's language...
and it is very important that folks understand that there is no one path..
Each way must be given it's due..
But the Destination should be the focal point...
that's my opinion.

Back then folks weren't all that ready to hear about this stuff...
but the Light is getting so much brighter
as each soul realizes it
and that speeds things up
but also threatens the destruction of the old Order...
of Fear, Desire, and Self Centered consciousness.

It's time now to realize our Unity
It's time to See the Light within ourselves
and all things
.
It's time to quit stifling the voices of our souls
Speak the Truth
And be Free

other side of the door, by the yellow brick road

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